God's Plan Was Better.

Today marks the one year anniversary of the day that I found out that I was pregnant with Kendell. I was way more emotional than normal and just to "be safe" I had Sean run out and get a pregnancy test. This was not a strange occurance for Sean as he was quite used to me freaking out about thinking I might be pregnant and this certainly wasn't the first time that he "ran" out to get me a pregnancy test. In fact if I had known just how many pregnancy tests I would have bought over the years I probably would have stocked up on the dollar tree tests a LONG time ago ;)

So he brought home the tests and within seconds of me "performing the deed" the second line showed and I looked up at him waiting for the news with the most shocked and nervous face he has ever seen on me.(that was a total run on!)

Right away I burst into tears and Sean started pacing and blowing air out of his mouth with such force that I thought he was going to hyperventalate! He was just as shocked as I was considering I hadn't had a period yet and was still nursing Kierstin. We were even using protection.

He held me as I sobbed for what seemed like an eternity and I begged him to tell me that "everything was going to be ok". He said it was of course because God is in control. You see...Sean had just been put on disability and was still in a cast when we found out. He was uncertain of his future at his company or of his future as a tower climber in general. We were scared and were living in a tin can that we had already grown out of.

But...Sean was right. We weren't in control. Because I was pregnant we found a fantastic place to move into within our price range and owned by Christians. We have never been late on rent in the many months that we have lived here. God has supplied for our family. He also kept our beeter of a van running just as long as we needed it to. A van that I swear was held together by duck tape and bubble gum by the end!

And in April of this year I gave birth to our fifth daughter whom you all know. Kendell Seana. She has by far been my easiest baby. And I wonder if it is because I am just gaining in patience, knowledge and maturity or if her personality will just stay as laid back as it has been. She is smart as a whip and I know will try her hardest to "catch up" with Kierstin. She already is!

God gave her to us, and that is a blessing. We can't imagine life without her and wouldn't take back the struggle this last year has been. It has grown and stretched us even furthur and it is easy to see God in the midst of it. Still in control and still holding his promises true.