As it seems the thing to do lately...

I will tell you about how I met Sean. And I know without a doubt that God intended me to meet Sean and planned before we were even born for us to be together.

I was 17 when I started really trying to figure out the internet. I was also 17(a week from being 18)when I left my parents house. I moved in with a girl who I didn't really know too well but offered me a place to stay during a difficult transition, and I wanted to be on a destructive path. I was angry, frustrated and felt like I was waiting for my life to begin and patience was not something that came to mind.

Looking back on it, it seems so simple. God knew that I would have been so distructive that he offered grace to me once again in bringing Sean into my life. Because I was lonely I placed a "personal" ad on yahoo.com and Sean noticed it. He replied like a few others and we started talking online, then on the phone, and then met a few days later at MCC near the library. I knew that I loved him the moment that I saw him. He was so beautiful. We left MCC and went to see one of the dumbest movies I have ever seen "Meet Joe Black". I wanted to leave the movie so bad, but was nervous to tell Sean. He told me later that he spent the movie staring at me and had no clue what was going on in the movie.

We left the movie when it was over and spent the evening together. He left after hours of talking. The rest really is history. I don't really think that we spent any time apart until Christmas. He asked me to marry him about 5 weeks after we met(on Christmas Day 1998), and I said Yes. He left the next day with his family for a two week vacation to Disney.

So what do I know to be true. God is in control. Even when we look like we are totally out of control...his plan for our lives doesn't stop. I praise him for bringing Sean to me when he did. He could have allowed me much more time to "hang" myself but he didn't. I praise God that he knew what he needed in a husband. Someone who really does fill in the gaps where I have nothing. Every day is not lovey dovey but there is a strong sense of "unconditional love" that I feel especially when I know that I have fallen short. I couldn't be fulfilled as a mother if it weren't for Sean.

I am certainly blessed.